I shouldn't be here....
I don't belong here....
So then what's my reason?
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wow it took me forever to find that heart alt code;; D: ehh...

heehee, yeh, it's almost 12 in the morning rite naow my parents are asleep && i'm tryign not to make noiiiseee >_> aaargh, you know, it's when you don't want to make noise, that you domake noise && when you don't really care about it, you don't make noise.

wai the fck amai telling you this?

~_~_~_~_~_~_~I'm not dead! ~_~_~_~_~_~_~
well guys C:

alotsa shit happened since my last entry >_>



heehe, last tyme you guys saw me i was liek a nice little gurl C: naow imma scenester who smokes && drinks && has supah kool friends >:B
fucking jk ppl! >: D haha, you srsly fell for it d: no, i don't smoke, that's kinda creepy C:
I wouldn't do that...
D:
aw hell naw
......
.........
wow, okay no D: geez
neh, i'm fine, i'm not dead yet. C: I missed all of you btchzz <3

eh...i would rate lyfe about a 7 rite naow. C: good enough.
i'm glad i finally submitted something since liek...last year;; wow. d: hehe.


yeh...d: so if you really wanna read the whole story on that draing... >: D haha, keep on reading. d:

~_~_~_~_~_~_~My Gay ass Skool && shit liek that C:~_~_~_~_~_~_~

I get orgasms when i hear the backwards pumpkin song O_O I don't mean sexual orgasm...that's just nasty. xD

That has nothing to do with the subject /: uhm....


well, my skool is fcking gay ass you know? /:
i have PE first period naow. fcking btch whore coaches. they want me tie my bangs back coz they think i can't see. but you know what fuckerz? >:U i can!!!!
fck...my flash program froze :C
while we wait...let's look at this beutiful gif && admire it's...beauty. (my computer just had a spazm xD && another....)


Oooh, my program's back! so can you possible imagine me with my bangs tied back? that would look-

that would be supah gay /: but i never listen to them...maybe that's why i got a 70 >_> they hate me, and always have since 6th grade. D: good thing i wont have to see them next year C: coz imma go to highschool xD (finally)

eh, my new science teacher is the teacher i had in 6th grade...only now she's teaching 8th. she sucks balls. >:U (thz nasty but whtvr) she's fat && ugly && makes sciene seem even more boring than it is. her makeup is caked on && she wears horrible outfits. it's disgusting >_< but i got used to her.

I hate the fact that we have to tuck in our shirts, even though i never do it. xD ppl call me a rebel, coz a teacher (especially science tchr) can tell me to tuck it in, and i have it tucked out the next second. but whtvr bitches i don't listen to fgts liek the skool staff /:

the kidds at my skool are fags too. D: especially that one guy who's liek satanic or something? idk..he's kinda scary;; i used to liek him in 6th grade (idk wai ) but i swear, he is the creepiest guy this year xD he'll randomly yell "satan" in the middle of a class. && not only that, but in math class when the product or something is .666666 he'll yell "yes!!! satan!!!" it's kinda weird, and the awful fact is that the teachers don't even say anything xD...he also lieks to talk about death, in front of the teachers. :C it's weird


I shouldn't be in the skool i am in right now....
*sigh*
first off, i don't live in that area.
second, that's for the upper middle class :C I'm bot upper middle class betch. >:U
so why am i there...?
when i could be in the skool i actually belong in... >_> damn.
that skool is hella lot better...
not in the educational wayz >:/

idk, i feel out of place, but that's just me...
xD imma bitch i know.
"i'm being shallow"
liek dyp said. C:
maybe i am...idk...but..whatever nigga

~_~_~_~_~_~Can't wait to go to highschool C:~_~_~_~_~_~
imma go to IB ¬_¬ hooray
&&
when i went for the interview i saw this scene gurl C: so thz cool, can't wait till next year. >: D haha, some interesting ppl are gonna be there (yeah, you know who you are d: )

~_~_~_~_~_~Quiz Tyme! ~_~_~_~_~_~

First Quiz <3

ANOREXIA
[X] you have dry skin
[ ] you eat 1 meal
[X] you're very weak
[X] you hate yourself
[ ] you starve yourself
[X] you have low self esteem
[ ] you use laxitives
[ ] you need to be more skinny
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
[X] people think you are too skinny
Total: 5

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)
[X] your mind is all over the place
[X] you are hyper most of the time (only with friends)
[X] you barely pay attention to anything
[ ] you can't cooperate well
[ ] you talk all the time
[ ] you need attention 24/7
Total: 3

BIPOLAR DISORDER
[X] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[X] you are very irratable
[ ] you are anti social(in rl)
[ ] you have very high self esteem sometimes
[ ] you are abusing alcohal, drugs, or sex
[X] you have thought of/attempted suicide
Total: 3

BULIMIA NERVOSA
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[x] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[X] people think you a way too skinny
Total: 2

CONDUCT DISORDER
[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people.
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
Total: 0

DEPRESSION
[ ] You are always sad
[ ] You find no hope in your future
[ ] You find no longer excitement over the activites you use to love.
[X] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day
[X] You have low self esteem
[ ] Everything bad happens is always your fault
[X] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] You are failing school
[X] You have thought of/attempted suicide
[ ] you have run away from home
[ ] Hope is no longer there for you
Total: 4

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)
[ ] You have daily rituals
[X] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.(occasionally)
[ ] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[ ] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[X] you have harmed yourself.
[X] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[] you have to check some stuff over again
Total: 3

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)
[X] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[ ] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[X] you can be/are anti-social.*can be*
[ ] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[X] You have not had a lot of sleep lately
[X] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.(though sometimes i want to...)
[X] you can have angry outbursts.
[ ] You act younger than your age
Total: 5

SCHIZOPHRENIA
[x] you often have hallucinations
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[ ] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[ ] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
Total:6

I tag: <3



Second quiz <3

EMO QUIZ! >:U

[x] I like skinny jeans
[x] Music is life.
[] I write/wrote poetry/song lyrics.
[x] My hair covers part of my face
[] I wear band shirts
[x] I know who Jeffree Star is.
[x]I wear/wore converse
[x] I wear/wore vans.
[x] I wear/wore eyeliner
[x] I have/had/want my lip pierced
[] I listen to The Used

Total= 8

[] I'm in a band
[x] My screen name had/has an x in it
[x] I like My Chemical Romance
[x] I also like/liked Green Day
[x] I sit in corners often.
[ ]I hate MTV
[x] I take pictures of myself a lot
[x]Especially ones where you can't see my whole face.

Total so far= 14

[x] I am lost without a cd player/my iPod/mp3
[X] I have/had thick rimmed glasses.
[X] I have no issues with bi/gay people
[x] I hate the president.
[ ] I have/had a mohawk.
[x] I've worn black nail polish
[] I like/have liked slipknot.
[X] I hate who I live with. (sometimes)
[x] Black is a good color

Total so far= 21

[x] Right now I am listening to music
[X] I know what hxc means.
[X] I know what sxc means
[X] Myspace = love
[X] Hot Topic doesn't scare me.
[X] I wear/wore studded belts.
[X] I Like Hawthorne Heights
[X] I have worn tight jeans.
[x] I have/want/wanted to dyed/dye my hair black.
[x] I'm sensitive.
[x] I write/draw on myself.
[x] I've been called emo before.

Total so far= 33

Multiply your answer by three...

I’m 99% emo?? D: does that make any sense? D: 99% && i still had sum questionz missing... O_O mmm.... whtvr

I tag: <3

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Okay, so i said i'd tell you guys about him....
D:
nyergh...even if i don't wanna, but you ppl are asking me "What's his name? " "Have you talked to him? " "Why is the president an idiot? "

Uhm...first off, i don't know his name. C: otherwise it would be all over my bedroom walls decorated with fcking hearts && shit >:U
Second of all, no, i haven't...
Third... I don't know! Why don't you go ask the president yourself?

He...
is....
*flashback*
Me: Yeh, let's go. *in mind as she gets into car: hooray :C we're finally back from winter break how wonderful..i bet it's gonna be just as boring as usual*
&&
the car starts moving and stuff
as we are passing by the street from my neighborhood to the other street (wtf, did that make sense? /: )
Me: *getting out iPod && sudden;y notices some guy walking on the sidewalk*.....! emo guy...? here...in...my neighborhood?.........*stares*
Guy:*listening to iPod*
Me: OnO
Guy: *lalala*
Me: O n O
Guy: *lalalalala*
Me: O n O Oooooh bby <3 (jk i didn't think that)...
so i just kept staring at him until i couldn't see him anymore....
That was the first day i saw him.... && i couldn't stop thinking about him till the next day...
I saw him again....

And i kept on seeing him a few days after that. I knew i just had to meet him.

The first person i attempted in telling:
Me: HEY! : D theresafuckenemoguyinmyfuckenneighborhoodmanamiluckyorwhatbitch?
Bitch(notrly):.....no

Due to the fact that Bitch (notrly) didn't care. I decided that Bitch (notrly) was never to be told such thing again.
so i told someone else, and someone else and soon all my friends knew about him. C:
Oooh, I have had somany close encounters with him after that..but...idk, i just can't....
the closest i ever was to him (where he actually noticed me)
was... (omfgz i memorized the date, i'm such a freaky stalker )
2.7.08♥♥♥

I was in the car with my motherr (grr >:U) && we're getting close to our street. (I was thinking of him) && surprise nukka! >:U he comes running out of nowhere && his friends are behind him and imma liek "WTF!!!!!! <3" i swear, i just kept staring, and i tried not to, but i couldn't stop, and he kept staring back. he probably thought i was mental or something xD ehh...and yeah, that was the closest i've ever gotten to meeting him. C: well, at least naow he knows there's a freaky mental gurl in his neighborhood. xD not so good, but ah well. :]
No questions asked plz unless u wanna get beat up with a stick >_>
nah whtvr, ask me anything, criticize me, idk. >:U say whatever...i could care less. TT__TT *goes && cries in corner*

C:
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I don't feel liek doing the featuring spot (even though i didn't do it last tyme d: )

sooo bai nukkas <3

ILY all : D






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